The youtube channel Dictionary of Obscure Sorrows (https://www.youtube.com/user/obscuresorrows) crystallizes emotions, desires and thoughts that have passed through our minds for a brief moment before fading. The video above describes Avenior, which is the desire to live your life in reverse, with full knowledge of the things that would happen to you over the course of your life.
The video shows this theoretical reality ending with life as a baby, nurtured by your parents. As I watched the video, I felt a longing for that relationship with my parents again. A simple life with these two people, who I have known for so long, wrapping me in their love.
I also though about Mom, and her life as a baby. A little while before I came into existence, my mother herself was a helpless bundle of joy with a world of possibilities before her. When I think about the beginning of her story, it hurts a lot to think that it has ended.